My last couple of posts have been pretty depressing, really. This week has had a completely different tone to it than the previous weeks have held though. I feel like things are letting up. I am not near as stressed as I was earlier. People are moving on with their lives, even after their loved ones have passed away. Time carries on, ya know? There have been times when I just wanted to shake a clock and yell at it to “SLOW DOWN”. But it didn’t. We move on.
As far as Sam is concerned, the last time I cried was yesterday morning. I sat down at my desk and pretty much immidiately started bawling. I was determined to make it through the morning with not crying, but I didn’t make it. Leaving my apartment without saying “BYE SAM!!!” was hard. I have done it almost my whole life. But I have decided to go ahead and start looking at kittens. Today I applied for one that is absolutely the most adorable thing you have ever seen. He even has a big fat hard belly; I’m convinced it’s filled with beer. Preferably Ace.
I am not attempting to replace Sam because that is impossible. I am attempting to move on. Go with the clock. Stop wallowing.
To everyone who has left me comments or emailed me, thank you so much. You have no idea how much your words mean to me. Even friends who have called to check up on me or get me out of the house, thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
Maybe by the beginning of next week I will feel like writing about the normal dating and music stuff, but for now I am going to grace you with the most incredible photo of Joey I have ever taken. This will be framed, my friends.
I’m glad you’ve got friends you can count on during such difficult times. An addition to the family sounds wonderful. I really think it helps get through the sadness, and I am certain Sam would want that for you. Hang in there sweetie – I’m thinking of ya!