The past month has been a whirlwind. A whirlwind of crap. Crap that I have brought on myself, but crap nonetheless.
First off, I am vowing to never ever again stay friends with any guy I date. If we date and it doesn’t work out, I have learned that it is much easier to never talk to them again. I tested this theory not too long ago and guess what! I watched as my theory turned into a fact! This was a guy I met right after a stressful “relationship(?)” I had previously been in. I told him I needed a little time to warm up to the idea of dating someone again, with which he replied “Babe, I’ve got all the time in the world”. Sweet, right?! Mmhmm. Right. I warmed up to the idea of dating him pretty much the second he came over to my apartment with a huge bottle of my favorite Gatorade and my favorite movie when I was sick for a week. After I got over that massive head infection I suffered through, I wanted to get in touch with him and tell him that I thought he was awesome and I would be stupid to not let things happen between us. But you know what happened instead? He went to the lake for a weekend. And came home with a girlfriend.
Since then I have just been having fun. Nothing serious with anyone. I’m not interested in anyone around me, however, I am interested in what it feels like to be in a real life, serious, healthy, adult relationship. I’ve never been in one. Even at almost 27 years old, all of my relationships have resembled the ones I had when I was 15… and honestly, when I was 15 I think the decisions I made were MUCH more mature than the ones I make now, but that’s beside the point.
In 16 days I am moving out of Tulsa, which is a bittersweet feeling. I mean, I am ready to get out of here. But at the same time, I have had some kick ass memories because I live right in the center of everything. It’s going to be weird when I have to drive 30 minutes to get to the normal hangout spot instead of three minutes.
I am going to end this post with the traditional music video. I am not sure how long this song has been out, but I just heard it today. Since I have been caught up in nothing but crap for the past month, the music that I have been exposed to has had lyrics like “Let’s have some fun this beat is sick, I wanna take a ride on your disco stick”. And also ” Do the Helen Keller and talk with your hips”. I apologize. This is Spiralling by Keane and it’s really good.
